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Monday, August 10, 2009

fill the void.


i have a strange habit of holding my hand up in the sky when i lay on my bed after i turn off the bedroom lights. i can only see the silhouette of my hand and i think to myself "who or what can fill this void?"

i have matured a little since a few years back. or maybe i have actually become immature and cynical, but nevertheless this is absolutely just an opinion:

i've fallen in love before. once, to be exact; it was such a long time ago. the object of my affection never really reciprocated my love but thats quite all right. i thank him for leaving it alone, thus saving my love from the possibility of being tainted. love is something that, if youre lucky enough, you will experience once in your life. if you experience it more than once, then youre a very unfortunate person.
"why?" you ask. because love is such a negative term. it conveys a sense of irrationality, irresponsibility, selfishness and impulsiveness. love is a word that will be used forever but it lasts shorter than a lifetime. respect lasts forever. when you respect someone, you honor that person, youre loyal to that person. thats why relationships should be based on respect not love.

i rather someone tell me he respects me than he loves me.

mutual respect is more loving (more valuable, more honorable, more rational) than love itself.

4 comments:

robinkim said...

But being in love/loved feels so good though D:
&The blood coughing thing is whatevs.
I'm not going a doctor though.
Don't wanna go D:

AmandaPanda said...

LOL. YOURE LIKE A LITTLE KID WHO DOESNT WANT TO GO TO THE DENTIST.

Anonymous said...

what you're thinking like me now.
Yeah, the idea of love isn't that great, its about as great as true equality.
I let those who wish to fall, fall and help those who wish to stand. At some point in life you'll fall again and then again but it truly depends on how many times you're willing to pick yourself up with no one's help.

AmandaPanda said...

mr. anonymous, you sound like someone i know.

 
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