boom goes the dynamite.

something happened yesterday and i feel like i have to blog about it. so yesterday i was just playing around with my golf clubs and i hit this ball with my 7 iron and broke the second floor window. later i was able to retrieve that golf ball in my back yard. <- [like thats important] what sucked about it was that the window was a dual glass insulated single hung window which in plain english means "its going to take 200 dollars to fix."

going into something completely irrelevant. i dont really like to talk about controversial subjects on my blog because i know that many people are very passionate about religion and quite frankly i dont really want to piss anyone off BUT ive been worked up lately. recently, ive been questioning my own faith, not that ive been clear on what i believe and dont believe before. over the years my views on religions have more or less changed. to sum it up, all these years i believed --> disbelieved--> doubted--> believed--> doubted--> am puzzled. and in the end found myself a hypocrite.
hypocrite? why would i call myself that? well because i dont believe in a higher power but i believe in miracles. i dont believe in predestination but i believe that everybody has a plan on earth. im really messed up arent i?

well to conclude on this bizarre situation that im stuck in. religion is something that you either believe in or dont believe in. religion isnt a moral compass or standard. believe in something if you truly believe in it. dont just believe it because you think its the right thing to do.

btw. people who oppose the universal health bill bc it includes government funded abortions need to get their facts straight.

*edit: i am currently interested in Buddhism. promotes enlightenment, tranquility and 仁「jin」