sounds like something on eharmony.

long time no update, dear blog!

i've been dealing with some inner turmoil as well as some personal issues. but now im back and enjoying life.

i've been trying to come to terms with the fact that i am a deeply flawed person:
-im interested in trivial things.
-i have way to many useless interests.
-im not particularly good at any one thing.
-people cant perceive me the way i want them to.
-i have conflicting personalities.
-deep down i have problems trusting people.
-i have a hard time expressing feelings to the people i cherish.
-i always unintentionally lead on guys i am not interested in- resulting in them being hurt and me losing valuable friendship.
-i have a very stoic personality but people always think im the little miss effing sunshine.

but those are just the half empty part of the glass.

-even though 99% of me is pessimistic, the 1% of me craves optimism-the idea that everything will work out wonderfully.
-i love gardening. i cant even describe how wonderful and fulfilling it is.
-i am a human icebreaker. you can talk about anything with me. im always interested.
-i am a great cook.
-im a great golf partner.
-im one of the guys. dunno if thats good or not actually.
-i am an extremely loyal person if i trust you.
-i have really good temperament.
-i dont take life for granted.

now im very pleased with myself. even though its a mess to describe my personality. i've been working hard to embrace it.

before when i received compliments, i didnt know what to do because accepting it according to me would be very obnoxious. so i would often brush it off with a self deprecating joke.

but nowadays, screw it, i just acknowledge those compliments and tell those people that they have good taste. because they do.

im fabulous and you know it.

P.S. i found a huge stash of underwear that my dog stole and tucked away in his bed. fml. my dog is a panty thief.